I'm no longer hanging upside down in the car (although for sure it still fells like I am at times),the adrenaline has worn off, and a new Element has surfaced in my life. Lets stop here for a moment....
There is a question which has been toodling around in my mind since this cliff-driving experience. That question is about healing and transformation. Interestingly, my Master's thesis is on exactly this topic. I am wondering, post incident, if one (specifically me in this case) can be changed by a potentially life-changing event and if that change has anything to do with healing?
This of course brings up additional questions, such as:
What is healing anyway?
Is healing from a car accident (or any major life event, such as lost love for example, or any event which feels like the rug has just been pulled out from underneath you) simply the act of "getting back to" where one was before?
Or is it possible that healing has something to do with allowing and even engaging the dynamic change that is happening, literally coming out of the event/situation as another person all together?
Perhaps that means not that I will become other than who I am, but that I might actually be becoming more and more of who I am. All of the parts of me that were covering over my true brilliance are rusting away and falling off (if I let them?) Perhaps what served me before no longer serves me now. And to push, to try and force the old way into service of what is now, is actually anti-healing?
Me thinks the shamanic practitioner in me has been engaged. This is the perfect opportunity for the "healer to heal thyself." We shall explore more as the story continues to unfold, as the mystery continues to unravel....
